Friday, February 11, 2011
while others busy taking pictures of themselves with the rest of the classmates, im here busy blogging and playing games..haha..so sad to leave the class,cause we're bonded together..haiz..:(..actually,right now, we're supposed to present, but due to people's choice, faci agreed not to carry on with the presentation..hehe..luckily,our faci is very flexible..hehe..:)furthermore, im not too sure for today's problem statement..
haiz, last day of school..:(i really2 enjoy being in this class,la..had so much fun and laughter with them..all of them are not egoist and really are willing to help those who are in need.. thanks,classmates!!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
hey,its me again..hehe..currently finished eating my lunch which is hawaiian and bbq chicken from sarpino's piiza..naise..cause free,mah..hehe..my chemistry faci gave a budget of $100 for anything that we want,in the end, we choose pizza..thought of eating canadian pizza, but oh well..so,around 12+, the delivery man come and we ate..drank halal campagne..hehe..nola..it's just sparkling juice..ok,lah the taste not so bad..still can consume,one..hehe..:)
currently im bored..deal with it..hehe..so hungry,la..waiting for pizza to arrive..damn it..hope they'll arrive faster,la..hehe..imma hungry..coz,just now i ate waffle with my classmates..right now having chemistry and i hate today's topics..isomers!!wth!!i prefer last week topics about esters and stuff..more syiok..anyway,update for al my readers..
currently,my relationship has been settled and i decided to forgive him and give us another chance in this relationship..cause i loved him and i do not want him to go..even though,how persistent i am in breaking up with him, but deep in my heart,i really do not want to let go of him, cause he's the one,who has touched my heart and make me fall for him..:)and he's the guy that i rekindled his love and here we are, going through the joys and sorrow of relationship..also, i couldn't bring myself to see him with another girl beside him laughing and stuff..i hope i'll always be beside him to support him when he fall and to lend him a listening ear, whenever he's feeling down..and to wipe his tears, when he cries due to the pain in enduring with his life..
.:P.S,i promise you,that i'll always be there for you, be it in healthy or in sick and even though we're no longer together, i promise, i'll be the one that'll support you and keep backing you up when life breaks you down..i promise that i'll be you best friend that you ever had..that's my promise to you..:)
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
it's complicated..haiz..seriously,i don't know if i should carry on with the relationship or break with him..its not his fault,anyway..its more of my fault than him..my mind is in a state of confusion,right now..should i give up,or should i just keep holding onto his hands??i think,i've kept many things from him..im not saying that i've been playing behind his back or what,la..its just that whenever he ask me whats wrong,i just cant answer, cause i don't know how to answer him..guess,u've been through this situation,a lot,right??how i wish i can open my heart to him and let my heart do the talking,but i know,its impossible..
currently we always fight over small things..actually its not we,but me..i always pick a fight with him for petty reasons..e.g:
- when he reply my messages late,i'll get sooo pissed off..eventhough he'll apologize after that, but i don't know why,i can't accept his apology..maybe because i want him to inform me wherever he go..as in,if he knows that he's gonna reply my messages slightly l8,he should've inform me,right??rather than making me wait..
- he's late for anything..example,he's late for our dating and stuff..it really pissed me off and will bring my happy mood to bad mood,like seriously
- he'll apologise for all his mistakes and keep repeating..hehe..(i guess this applies to most of us)..
for the 4 reason and so on, i've yet to figure out what it is..from these reasons, i know people will say that im petty and stuff..yeah,i admit im a petty person and i love to sulk..and whenever i sulk,i'll never talk to the person,for these cases,i'll never talk to him..for what i talk to him,if i know he gonna make me more mad,right??its better to keep quite rather than continue talking and keep all the revenge inside me..
maybe the main reasons why our relationship,seems so complicated to me, because he loves me more than i do..i don't deserve him..i know..i've asked him for a clean break, but he doesn't want to let me go..for me,eventhough we're no longer together,but we can still be best friend..and he can call/messages/go out with me once in a while,cause that's what friend always does,right??spending time together..but for him,he felt that once im no longer his, i'll stay away from him and not reply any messages and thus, we become just ordinary friend and maybe we'll not be in contact anymore..haiz..
im confused..should i break up with him or should i not??one thing for sure, i need to have a time out from him to think about our relationship..
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
hey all..currently in school with my lovelies..hehe..:)thought of studying, but oh well..maybe i shall do it later, perhaps..hehe..:)or maybe at home than i study or maybe i'll not study at all perhaps..hehe..:)oh ya, i think right,my trip to cambodia with the school is not being accepted,la..but,it's ok..eventhough i really wanted to go, but i shall be be optimistic about it..since i've got 2 months holiday, then, i shall worked!!yeah!!:)by working,i'll then save enough money to buy itouch or present for sweetheart..hehe..i plan to buy itouch as my birthday present so that i am able to appreciate my itouch instead of letting it rot,like what happens to my psp..haiz..:(maybe GOD wanted me to be more appreciative of what I have..oh well,i should make it a lesson to not lost my things..:)
that's all for now..till we meet again..:)
Monday, February 7, 2011
OMG!!!if i knew that being absent from school is such a boredom,i shouldn't have done that..sigh!!but i can't do anything,cause what's done cannot be undone..just that i felt a sense of relief when i didn't go school for cognitive, cause i hate my group,like seriously..well,shall not talk into more details,cause these walls have ears and mouths and they might have blabbered about my blog to the person..sigh..imma hungry right now, but i don't know what to eat..felt like eating maggie, cause it's been a while since i last eat maggie and i miss how it tastes like..sigh!!
it's been so long since i last update my blog,right??i've no time and also no internet at home,how to blogged,right??hehe..:)last week,i've a long holiday and those holidays i used it for working..cause public holiday mah and 1.5 times my basic pay..which is like $8.25/hour instead of my $5.50..fantaboulous,right..hehe..and i work 8 hours then minus 1/2 hour break so,maybe in a day i get around $61..but,its very tiring..cause all the senior staff like not working and some went to their homeland..so,left the some of the full timer and part-timers..but our part-timers are mostly chinese, of course they wanna celebrate their new year with family,right??so,left with the malay and the indian part-timers..then,got a new part-timer,without any fnb experience and he's so capable,sia..and we don't have to tell him on what he need to do and he'll do..how good is that..shall stop talking about work..thinking about work,makes me tired,already..
1st day of CNY,sweetheart fetched me from work as usual and we took shuttle service to orchard and was quite shocked when orchard's empty..cause there's never a time when orchard's empty..but then i realised of course,la..CNY,what..1st day somemore..who wanna go celebrate their new year at orchard right..then,walked around ION before we call it a quit and i decided,to go Marina keppel bay with sweetheart cause he never went there before..took bus(as usual) to MKB..alight at vivo and need to walk somemore, so i be the tour guide and guide the both of us to MKB..wasn't long before, i get stomachache..and it was like so painful,like the pain you experienced when you're going to lau sai..very pain and i super hate it,cause i felt like my stool gonna be watery and i don't want it to shit before i reach MKB,sia..
decided to stop and sit at a cement place so that the shit would not escape..after that,we continued our journey and felt the pain again..like OMG!!i soooo cannot endure..but i didn't concentrate on the stool instead i concentrate on other things and stuff..hehe..cause it's always mind over body,right??walk and walk till we reach the shopping centre and quickly searched for toilet and fuhhhh!!i release all the toxins that's inside my body..syiok,or what!!hehe..sit at the open field and both of us do some star-gazing..hehe..shall do it more often,honey!!
right now,im so missing sayang,la seh!!he's the one who never gives up on me and he never ever let go of my hand even though how persistent i am on letting go of his hands..seriously,he doesn't deserve me,cause im such an ungrateful, unappreciative, selfish and stuff..he deserve someone better..i don't know why,but its very hard for me to accept his apology..maybe im tooo egoistic..haiz..i think in our relationship,he's the girl while im the man..hehe..sigh..mianhae,sayang..anyway,his b'dae is coming,so what shall i bought for him..i wonder..hehe..actually,i've already found what im going to give him,but i don't know if i've enough money or not..till then chiao..:)
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
GO TO HELL,BIATCH!!you think people really like you,meh??to hell with ya!!passing those comments, doesn't make you any better..please reflect on yourself, before passing such comments,can??stupid..if you want to earn the respect, respect others first..seriously so damn fucked up with someone!!think soooo special,la??haiyer!!!
nevermind, shall not this incident ruin my happy mood..hehe..tomorrow's mobio and i hope not many people come,so that we could have a smaller group in class and therefore, end the lesson early..furthermore, sayang said that,maybe,just maybe tomorrow he'll book out earlier,way too early around 12,like that,cause tomorrow's CNY eve..yay!!good for me,cause maybe he could come and fetch me from school..hehe..
maybe we could go out and eat and watch movie..hmm,what shall it be??green hornet,perhaps..but tomorrow cannot go back late..haiz..sian..:(nevermind..thursday,will be working from 10-6..7.5 hours!! syiok!! since thursday pH so,my pay is x 1.5!!how syiok is that..but of course,la,i'll be sooo tired..hmmm..shall not tire myself out,cause after work,i wanna go enjoy with sayang..:)
