Friday, November 26, 2010
P.S:Dear Readers, pardon me for being emotional or romantic,but hey,i don't care what you wanna say..hehe..Happy 16Monthsary to us..hehe..how time flies sooo fast..suddenly,we're already together for 16th month..it felt sooo long yet sooo sooon..hoping that our relationship will progress for very very long,until our marriage..INSYA-ALLAH..you guys pray for me,aite..hehe..Sayang,thank you for being there for me..Thank you for all the love that you've given to me, thank you for all of your sacrifices,thank you for comforting me when i'm done,thank you for staying by my side, eventhough i throw tantrums,im a bad-tempered and foul mouth person and thank you for being by my side,eventhough you can have much better girl than me,more prettier than me and a girl which are able to comfort you whenever you're down..also,thank you for coming into my life and makes a difference in my life...:P.S:I want you to hug me from behind,unexpectedly..I want you to give me your hoodie when I'm cold..I want you to hold me and keep me warm..I want you to kiss me in the rain..I want you to hold my hands and play with my fingers..I want you to play with my hair..I want you to take amazing photos with me..I want you to tell your friends just how much you love me..I want to watch the sunrise with me..I want you to tell me how much you miss me..I want you to drop everything and just hold me tight..I want you to squeeze me as hard as you can when you hug me..I want you to smile every single time you see me..I,just want YOU!!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
currently in school after finishing up my homework..had physic UT and yeah,i hope i did well.. >.<..also,hoping that i didn't fail my physic,la..please..:)i really2 wanted to pass my physic..went to buy cookies from SUBWAY..at first,i thought wanna eat kaya waffle,but the kaya finish..like wtf??lucky i'm not the principal of this school..if not,i tell them to buy or steal or do whatever it takes for me to eat kaya waffle..the aunty also,like stups,sia..she can buy kaya from 7-11 what..haiyo..survived physic today..Alhamdulillah and honestly faci was like arrowing at me,la..paiseh,la seh..the faci,i think like want to sabo me..haiyer..nevermind,at least i did learn something,right??rather than nothing and pretended to know all..hehe..end class quite early around 2.45,like that...then go washroom with my classmates and went to booklink buy sweets to bring inside class..at first,i thought wanna buy also,but i couldn't make up my mind as to what i want to eat..fickle-minded??yeah,that's my middle name..mum woke me up and ask if today i don't have any school..i was like wtf??it's not even holiday,what,then how the hell did she get the conclusion that i don't have any school today??but,come to think of it,i couldn't blame her,because sometimes when i wanna absent from school,i'll give excuse that i don't have school today..padahal,padahal..but,now,i cannot do that anymore,cause Sayang already enter the NS..sigh..life's a lot less fun than before,when he was with me and accompany me finish my homework and stuff..
well,people say everything happens for a reason,right??it's good also that sayang enter NS,so that i can go home together with my friends and catch up with them and become close again..it's not that i don't like him accompany me and going back together,but it's just that i realised i spend more time with him than with my friends..haiz..and now im making up for it...:Another 3 more days till the end of the week where I'll be able to meet you again and spend our times together and i sooooo cannot wait for it,la sayang..honestly..i think i've change for the better,ever since you enter NS..my relationship with my friends also becoming more closer than before..ALHAMDULILLAH..and the think that i like most is that i've become more independent and i don't think im over-sensitive than before,right??hehe..also,the thing that i appreciate the most is that i learnt to appreciate you more than before..cause whenever you booked out,eventhough how angry i am towards you due to your lateness, but i try to understand since you have "extra" organ,right??hehe..P.S: Life Is About Our Feelings And Taking Chances,Losing And Finding Happiness,Appreciating The Memories And Learning From The Past
Monday, November 22, 2010
what shall i blog this time round??hmmm..lemme think..hehe..last friday,actually i did update my blog,but somehow the internet kinda hanged and thus,i cannot save nor published my blog.. wtf..then,thought that i wanna blog the same thing again,but neh,too lazy to do so..hehe..last friday,fetch sayang from choa chu kang and we went to jurong point cause he wanted to buy something from there..but,when we went there,the shop no longer exist..poor sayang..=(..but he don't seem to mind though..went to ntuc,and bought chox..after that,sayang went for his dikir cause he missssesss his dikir mates while i go back home,la..saturday,went to collect my pay and went to watch movie-RED(retired extremely dangerous)..the movie,was okok,la..cause in the first part of the movie,kinda confused with the storyline..as the storyline moves,then i know what the story is about..thought of watching unstoppable for our next dating..hehe..went to bitch road,cause sayang wanna buy his ns stuff and it was around 9+ and sayang want us to go bugis and just window shopping but neh,i was too lazy to window shop and we just went home with sayang sending me home..SWEET,kan my sayang..IKR..sunday went work as usual until 3 and work at alfresco..haiyer..so don't like working alfresco cause im a passive smoker..passive smoker die early than smoker..like wtf??and these smokers are selfish tooo..only think of their own 'enjoyment' then others and the environment,no need to think,ah??stupid sia..to those smokers out there,sorry aite..no offence..:)just hoping that you guys will be given the light to stop smoking.."LIVE IT UP WITHOUT LIGHTING UP"now,in school,as usual while listening to music and updating the blog..hope that the internet will not be sucky..i guess im gonna study for physic by doing the practice question..if there are those questions that i don't understand,i think i'll just look at the answer and figure out from there..SMART??iKR..hehe..i don't feel like studying for physic,honestly,but i know,i don't have any other choice..haiz..nevermind..i'll just endure..hope that im able to endure it...:SAYANG,hope that your flu and fever have subside by now..and hope that you'll take care of yourself while in the camp..insya-ALLAH..i'll always pray that you're doing fine over there..and just wanna let you know that right these very moment,i am SOOOOOO MISSSSSIIIIINNNNG u!!!:(:(:(
Thursday, November 18, 2010
today,i decided to be nice to my sis by dowloading the iTunes software so that she can add songs since she just bought new handphone,which is iPhone 3(if im not mistaken) which she bought second hand at toa payoh hdb hub area..good for her..though i might be stubborn,but if downloading application for my sis,ANYTIME..i don't see why i can't help her,right?afterall,what are siblings for??hehe..currently in school at south food court area,with CMA and NO..is went home early due to her gastric pain..actually,after downloading the software,it was a bit troublesome for me,coz i need to delete the songs that appear in my library twice..however,i managed to do it at last..hehe..cognitive suck balls,man!!seriously!!today,class was like empty,coz,quite a number of my classmates are absent and not to forget some PARTIAL,also..haiyer..at first,thought that i wanna partial,but nope,so,i stay in class and went for my break with the "GOSSIPS"..hehe..in case,u're wondering who am i refering to,its just a name,that my classmates create..yesterday,didn't meet sayang,since it's hari raya haji,mah..so it's my family day with my relatives from both of my parent's side..had fun with my relatives,we talk,laugh and watch tv together..eventhough it was a while,but,i had fun..SYIOK,ah!!at last,tomorrow,i can meet sayang..tomorrow also got MoBio lecture..haiyo..troublesome.. nevermind,it's just for an hour..ok,la..its from 415-515..after that i shall rush to meet sayang at lot 1..after meeting him,we shall have dinner together before he go for his dikir training and me,went home..haiz..nevermind,i shall not be selfish and i should let him spend time with his dikir mates,right??i should understand his situation,right??that's what a good girlfriend do..we must try to understand their feelings..haha..yeah right..im like contradict myself..hehe...:Sayang,just wanna inform,you that,i'm soooo glad to have a boyfriend like you and eventhough on last tuesday,we just spend a few hours together,but honestly,i swear,i did have fun and i can't wait for our next date..hehe..hopefully,on saturday,im not working and we can spend more time together..spending time with you is something that i always look forward to..your lame jokes,your cute face and handsome face plus your personality=FUN..
Monday, November 15, 2010
what shall i blog for today??hmmm..currently having chem module and change group..and today gonna have UT maths..haiyer..WTF??yesterday,after work,eat muesli,cakes before i set my mind to do maths practice question..messaging with sayang before i call him and stuff..at last, i get to talk with sayang cause these few days,there have been quite a misunderstanding between us..communication problems,la seh..hmmm,well,to be honest,it's seriously not his fault,its just me..im being too over-sensitive and stuff..or maybe i'm pressure cause of school,work and never get to meet sayang since he's serving ns..i think my over-sensitiveness towards him is proportional to his confinement..hehe..yay,like finally,tomorrow gonna be the day,whereby i shall meet sayang,maybe we could go for a date or we could have a heart-to-heart chat..hehe...:ps:sayang,thank u for being there for me,thank you for staying with me,eventhough i've give u enough sadness and disappointment..thank you for willing to put up with my stupidity,lame jokes and stuff and last but not least,thank you for being my supportive boyfriend,who never once give up hopes on me..thanks you for everything,love..
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Guess this happens to everybody,right..Going through phases in their life..Meeting new friends,forget/dumped the old ones..this type of friendship is what we say "bagai kacang lupakan kulit"..perhaps,its because his/her old friends are not GOOD enough for him/her, and that why him/her chose to leave the old friends wandering about what eventually happens to their so-called "friendship"..this type of friends,are those,that i DISGUST the MOST and not worth having them..and i've been wondering if ever they were so true to us as friends or just stick to us cause they can't hanged around with someone else..hmmm..and let me give you an advice, these types of friends are not worth it,la..and maybe secrets that we shared with them is not a secret anymore..well,i guess,its typical/normal to them..hmmm,let it be..as long as they're happy with it's good enough,already..so,i shall now close my topic on friendship..Wednesday, November 10, 2010
school has been tough on me..especially for today's module,which is MoBio..seriously,i felt like partialling,but nope i didn't..hehe..eventhough i felt the urge to give up, but instead i persevere and thus,i hope to either get a B or C grade..Looking at my presentation,i don't really think i did well and i think i'll get a C..tough luck..haiz..nevermind,im determine to do better for my next problem..tomorrow gonna be my ut1 which is cognitive and i'll be having a cognitive module..coolshit or whut??hehe..i really hope that tomorrow's problem won't be a pain in the ass and hopefully that the ut that i'll be doing will be like a stroll in the park..usage of metaphors..hehe..learnt that in cognitive..was fun though..syiok,man..i don't really think that i had much to update on myself..and oh ya,forget to tell you guys something..last thursday,i went to meet sayang at lot 1 and when he "tegur" me,i was like,who the heck is this guy,man??i was stunned for a minute or two,but after a while,i get used to it and i start rummaging my hands on his hair..haha..it was fun,i tell ya and i did spot white hair..guess life at time is pretty tough,ehk,sayang..maybe he's too stress up,that's why white hair formed..haha..like really only my theory..but i guess,part of it is real,la..or maybe it's the genes..hmmm..well,what more can i say??lets leave all this in the hands of GOD..hehe...:Sayang,i know how you very much disgust life in NS with the punishments and stuff,especially during confinement..but thinking back,if you had gone through your 2 weeks of hell ,you will then be more happy..these are just obstacles in your life in order for you to complete your NS..eventhough it's very difficult and though and rough here and then and you feel the urge to AWOL,but i don't really think you would do that because i know you are not someone who will give up halfway and i know,that you are very determined person..once,you set your goals on something,i know you'll complete it,right??hehe..also,just remember the rewards after your confinement..one of it is that you'll get to spend more time with me,which i know,you like and i LLLLOOOOVVVVEEEEDDD it!!hehe..just hoping that you would take care of yourself and please don't get sick..i will pray that your 2 weeks of confinement will not be so strict and not much punishment,k sayang..right now,am wondering what he might be doing inside..maybe having punishment??i hope that he's fine over there..INSYA-ALLAH,we'll talk on the phone tonight,k sayang..hehe..missing your voice,honey..
Thursday, November 4, 2010
yay..Sayang will book-out today..what kind of english am I writing..haha..nevermind,as long as you guys can understand,good already,la..yesterday,talk on the phone with him..when he called me at around 7+ going 8,i was shocked to receive the call from him,because I know that for NS guy,their lights out is t 10:30,mah..that's why,I'm shocked..but then,I'm happy and excited at the same time,cause I get to chat with him..eventhough,it's only for a while,but I'm glad that I get to hear his voice that I missed and from his voice,I know that he's doing well over there..Alhamdulillah..at last,the day that I've been looking forward to come..yeah!!super like today,because it's Maths and so far,I like maths module..maybe because this semester the Maths module,is understandable..my faci,also quite good and reliable too..she'll go through every question in the worksheet with us and guide us along..glad to have a faci,like her..Thank God..If today,there's nothing on,I'll meet him at CCK..yeah!!I told him not to..but he insist..so in the end,we'll be meeting later..yesh ar..I'll be looking forward at the end of the day,because I'll be meeting him..again,yeah!!wonder,what shall I eat for lunch..hmmm..
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
currently,in school..time check:5:14Pm..don't know whether it's accurate or not,la..if you want really accurate timing go check 1711, but I must warn you that you must pay like 50cents like tat..haiyer,so money-minded..but what to do,nothing is free,what..even toilet also need to pay..hehe..:)..well,yesterday I received good news..which is that Sayang said he will be release from his NS thingy this coming thursday, which is tomorrow, yay!! and he say maybe around 4:30,he'll be release..However, the sad thing is that, I don't think, I'll be able to fetch me..and it's not because that I'm lazy or what..but,I know,he wants to go hone and I guess he needs his bed soooo freaking badddddddddd..hehe..in fact,Sayang had already said that once he book-out,he want to go back home to settle his stuff like washing his clothes and all..nevermind,la..it's ok,bella..u'll be fine..hehe..:)Eventhough,I can't meet him tomorrow when he book-out,but maybe friday we can meet or he can send me to work..hehe..but,then,I work 6-11..haiyo..very long,man..hope that my colleague cannot make it morning,so that I can change my work shift with him/her,so that I can spend time with Sayang..yay!!please,readers,pray hard for me,k..hehe..well then,even if there's no one that wanna change their work shift with me,it's ok..I'll just pray that my outlet will be soooo damn busy and so that every minute,I've something to do..isn't it just wonderful..hehe..my first UT will commence on Thursday,11/11..and it's cognitive..hope that I'm able to do well for my papers..i mean electronic papers,in our laptops..hehe..I'm just hoping that tomorrow will be a better day than today..Cause tomorrow is Maths..Yay!!cannot wait for it,la..but,I hopes that the problem is manageable for me to understand..never mind,at least my team got 1 maths expert..hehe..so,if I'm too embarrassed to consult to faci if I were to encounter any problems,I can ask him for help..what more can I ask for??afterall,I've got wonderful and sweet family,friends and of course my lovely PRINCE DANY that I'll be able to communicate with him in maybe around 5/6 hours time..(Khas untukmu,Dany)Menatap indahnya semua di wajahmuMembuatku terdiam dan terpakumengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindahsaat kau peluk mesra tubuhku..banyak kata yang tak mampu ku ungkapkan,kepada dirimuaku ingin engkau selaluhadir dan temani akudi setiap langkah yang menyakinikukau tercipta untukku..sepanjang hidupku..Somehow or rather,this song are just perfect for you,sayang..maybe I'm not someone who express my emotions freely towards you and I know,I'm not the romantic type compare to u..U're always the one who console me whenever I sulk and eventhough I know,that I'm the one who cause all the trouble,but u will always put the blame on yourself..so to say,as if you're the one which is at fault.."sigh"..:(..eventhough it's too early for me to say it,but I'll still say it..cause I'm scared that I won't have the chance to say it..maybe u feel that u've sooooo many flaws but as humans,all of us have flaws..because that's our weakness..but for me,u're just perfect,in my eyes and I hope that we'll be able to go through thick and thin together..everything happens for a reason..and I'm glad that eventhough I could not get my crush as my boyfriend,but I get you,the most precious gem that I've ever found..and I'll never let you go,cause for all,YOU,MUHAMMAD DANIAL BIN BUYAMIN, belongs to me..hehe...:P.S:It might be too mushy for some,but hell ya..this is my blog and what more can you do??hehe..:)
yesterday time went by so slowly.."Time goes by...so slowly.."suddenly Madonna's song came onto my head..haha..random..waiting for faci to start the presentation..haiz,no mood to study biology..sick of it already..haiz..but,i will be looking forward for tomorrow..yeah!!:)want to know why??hehe..you cannot,because,you have to stay tuned for my next blog post..woohoo..suddenly the though of going home kept me active..hehe..:)till then,my fellow readers..
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
14 days..It's a very,very long time..Maybe to some,they will say,ala,its not long,la..pejam celik,pejam celik dah sampai,but for me,it'll be very long,especially since He's not here with me,to go through our days together..However,I've to be optimistic cause he's serving the nation and he'll be able to defend the nation if ever we're in trouble..Until then,I've to keep reassuring myself that 14 days aren't that long..yesterday,we spend the last moment of our time together by going to to breakfast,watching movie,shopping and window-shopping..Sadness is always with me,especially since yesterday was the last time,we spend together before he went away and leaving me for 14 freaking,long days..but,i know,i've to be very patient during this period of time,cause - I know that God is teaching me to be patient for my sayang to return safely to me..hehe..;)..
- God want me to change my attitude/behaviour towards him..
- God want me to be independent cause whatever I do,I'll always consult him..so call,he's my private consultation..haha..
- God want me to appreciate him and treat him better..
- Last but not least,I felt that God want us to improve on our relationship, so that eventhough he's away from me for many days,I'll be able to cope without him around me..But,it'll be very,very difficult for me to fulfill it..
Lastly,I felt that whatever things happens for a reason..And eventhough it happen for a reason,somehow or rather,my heart just felt so heavy to let go of him.."sigh"..Just hoping that he'll take care of himself in there and he'll not be the be the victim of bullies..If ever,I were to discover that he kena bully by his mates,I'll "yakdush" and "watat" and do my tiger claw onto his bully..hehe..Whatever it is,I really hope that he's doing fine out there with his new environment,new people,new behaviour,new hair and new face colour..haha..BOTAK HEAD..and DARK SKIN..but whatever,I don't mind,really I don't..its the heart that matters most..
Sayang,awk hati2,berada di dalam camp and be careful wherever you are,tau..if you miss me,just remember our memories that we had together..Eventhough,it might not heal completely,but at least it does makes ur heart feel more lighter..does it??hehe..GoodBye my friend,my guy,my soul,my heart,my fashionista,my shopping friend,my bag carrier,my joker,my lamer and most of all my BOYFRIEND..I will be missing you..:(
